Adaptation and Evolution.

Where to even begin.  Lack of material does not quite correlate to lack of production on my part.  In fact, I feel as though I am doing more than I have ever done; and better.

Today is my birthday.  I had a previous employer who told me a birthday is just another day. He is correct.  Just another day.  So I will treat today as any other day and continue to funking dunk on 'em during my 'Jordan Year'. That said, I am giving myself a gift today.  I have so missed this outlet; in the chaos of life I have let it atrophy.  I have allowed a passion to wane.  Now is the time of passion, however. Every now is a time for passion.

All things; with passion.

The greatest adjustment that I have gone through in the past months is the initiation of a new perspective.  A vantage point that will allow me to begin thinking in longer terms. I have struggled with the strictures.  Sometimes I feel cornered. This is wrong. I am free, for I have a mind.  I have the entire world at my finger tips, I need only to grasp the things I want.  To hold in my hands what I desire. To consume, that I may produce.

I have caught a case of ambition.  If you had asked me what it was that I wanted to do with my life five years ago, I would have given you a blank stare and told you to fuck off. Then proceeded with a hair-flip and skinny-jean-shuffle whilst I put my ear-buds back in.  Ask me now, and I will stumble over my words as I begin a litany of every thing I seek to achieve in this ephemeral thing we call mortal life.

I think back to some of my earliest memories: I am 5 or so.  My dad and I have a ritual.  Warm evening; I am strapped in to the car-seat in the back of his 2000 VW Passat hatchback. We are driving through Richmond suburbia; all windows down.  The wind is buffeting my face.  I am to short to see the surroundings. Only trees passing by and blue sky in sight. Cracker is blasting in the background: "All things beautiful. All things beautiful. I want everything."

Thanks Pops. You and mother-dearest have given me both the tools and the understanding.  All things are beautiful. I would like to have all of the beautiful things.  I will have all of the beauty. In turn, I will create beauty. I will take with calm and intuition; I will give in return, with fervor and passion.